Its been a long time

I am kind of disappointed in myself. Although I really shouldn't be, because of how my life has been over the last 10 years or so. I struggle with depression which I am sure I have mentioned in some of my previous posts. Most people are shocked when they hear this and think how in the hell? Some of the people who are the most depressed hide it with a façade really well. Not everyone of course, but more than you realize.

I have more time on my hands than I know what to do with and yet I can never motivate myself to do the things that I really want to do like work out, crochet and be crafty, write a book I have been wanting to, update my blog and so forth. Some people would try to argue that my job doesn't help but I disagree. Yes I travel a ton for work and am never really home, but when I had a regular job where I didn't travel, I worked, went home and didn't really go out as often as maybe I should. The only thing that changed is that my work is all over the country. I do love what I do and I am going to continue doing it until I am totally sick of it or there are no more jobs.

Why am I writing all of this down? Who knows.....I am not searching for or asking for help, I guess I just feel like I need to get this out even though people don't read my blog unless I tell them there is new stuff there lol. So sitting here in my hotel in little Laurinburg, NC I am going to take time and update this with a few things I have been meaning to.

Thanks for reading :)

Noodle