Noodle's Random Road Thoughts (#NRRT)

Have you ever awoken from a dream that was so incredibly real, that you had to take a moment to figure out if it really happened or not?

Well that happened to me this week. My dream was about someone from my past who will always hold a place in my heart. Now I am not going to tell you what this dream was abut, as that doesn’t matter. All that matters is that it involves someone special. What makes having this dream even more real is over the past few weeks I’ve tried not to think of this person.

I know this person and I have had some big issues many many many years ago and that I most likely shouldn’t have these feeling for them anymore, but I do and it is rather frustrating. I want to find my someone so that I can stop thinking of them and that is the only way it ever happens. I have been with other people and dated for months at a time and during those times in my life those people are it, you are never in my life. It is when I’m single and trying to date that you are always there no matter what I do.

Even when you are nowhere in my mind, something somewhere shows up to put you there, whether it be a song, a sign, a quote, someone’s body language etc. in you come. Shit!! This vacation has been brutal! Lol

Some say dreams come from our subconscious mind, if that is true then I just have to deal, unless anyone knows how to erase parts from your memories. I never want to forget this person, and all of the good times we actually had….a lot of what happened between us, shaped me into part of the woman I am today. I don’t take a lot of shit from people, I am very selective in who I date, I treat people the way I want to be treated, I could go on and on but no real need to HA!

I know I am not alone in how I think about people from my past. I am not obsessed or doing crazy things to find them or talk to them we each are in different parts of our lives and enjoying each day as it comes. That is really all any of us can do, one day at a time.

Well, that is my random thought for today. I am sure in this noggin of mine, more will spew out the more and more I am stuck in the car for long drives or camping out overnight.

Till the next random thought time…..xo